Thursday, January 11, 2007

Everything's wrong

I smile but really I want to growl and sneer. I dont feel like being nice today. Im tired of small talk and I hate questions like "how are you?" I sit at work and think about everything but work. Attention span is very short. I dont want to be here. I dont want to be in this country. I dont want to be in this world, this life. I want to throw a glass at the wall and watch it shatter. I want to kick someone in the shin just to see them double over in pain. Im annoyed. For why, I dont know. Maybe its the heat. Maybe its the broken air conditioning. Maybe its the constant whirring of a lawnmower from outside. Maybe its because the year has changed but yet nothing's changed in my life. Maybe its just PMS.

I was discussing something and as my co-worker was blabbing away, I only realised what she was saying when I heard her say, "You have a quizzical look on your face. Don't you agree with this idea? What are you thinking?" I was this close *indicates small distance between finger and thumb* to saying what I was really thinking about. This:

A lot of blank spaces. Looks like 2007 will be a ball....


itsJustmoi said...

Hey rees!
Just wanted to say- I have these days too. Dont know what it is aye- PMS or the weather, sometimes i think i just got outa the wrong side of the bed you know, for some reason you wake up agitated and the whole day continues that way. Anyways- hope your weeks got better!!! chin up ma dear! alofas- me!

reesa said...

Thanks for the comment doc. Good to know I am not alone!

Take care and alofas.